I can't stop myself from buying binge food when I go to the store. I try not to keep sweets (my binge food) in the house but any time I have to go to the store I can't resist it. And of course my kids are learning from me. Then I feel guilty and down the entire bag of candy or whatever and going into a major depressive funk. I have pcos and I know thats part of my sweet/carb craving because my blood sugar is messed up. But even knowing that I will probably have diabetes in the next few years isn't enough to help me control the craving. I am just so frustrated. I know when I am on antidepressants I don't crave quite so bad, but prozac made me grind teeth, and zoloft agrivated my restless leg syndrome. It seems like every antidepressant out there adds to the weight gain and kills me sex drive and that makes things worse. I think I am on the brink of needing medicated again but I just can't bring myself to get help. I guess it would be better if the docs would actually care... I mean all I hear is just excercise more, eat less, we can't help you and it makes me feel like a total failure. I feel like I am failing my family and my life and I can't get out of the rut. I have joined the ymca here and started working out every day but for some reason that boosts my carb cravings so even though I am excercising my cravings are worse to control. Please tell me I am not alone in all this. I am just fatigued, hurting, depressed and want to hate food.
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