Wow, I was reading some of my old journal entries from last year and found one where I admitted to myself that I had a problem with food. The short version of the entry was simply my manipulating tactics to justify my over eating. I went to a drive thru and bought 2 value meals. The only reason I did this was because I wanted both meals, but justified it with both drinks in order to make it seems as if I was buying the meals for two people. I didn't want the fast food employee to think I was eating two meals. Fothermucker!!! The next morning, the other drink would still lie full in my cup holder sweating and leaking throgh the cup. This is the kind of shit that I never ever want to do again. I guess I just had to share because we all at one point or another try to feed our patterns.
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