Food Addiction Support Group
An individual suffering from a food addiction disorder frequently experiences episodes of uncontrolled eating, or binging, during which they may feel frenzied or out of control. They will eat much more quickly than is normal, and continue to eat even past the point of being uncomfortably full. Binging in this way is generally followed by a period of intense guilt feelings...
I was at the supermarket and I only bought healthy snacks and meals.. fruits, vegetables and meats. Okay fine, no problem.. I AM eating better and the weight is SLOWLY (which is frustrating me to no end because I am not patient by nature) coming off... but maybe in a year from now I will be down to my optimal weight lol, seems hard to believe.. yeah thats right unless either no crises happen between now and then because I am no where near dealing with my emotions.. I mean on the weekend I binged because I was jealous of my brother having it so easy! Yeah I got back up and stopped binging the next day but what if something huge happens that I cannot deal with? Life throws punches at you ALL THE TIME! Well whatever, no sense in worrying about that right now. Anyway I'll go back to what I was saying. At the supermarket now you are seeing chocolate and junk food EVERYWHERE because of the time of year we are heading into! Yep, the festive season! So I saw a big box of Lindt chocolates basically staring right at me. There was a big part of me that wanted to grab those chocolates but then I thought about "what for? You'll get a high for 5 minutes then you'll feel like complete garbage after"... though this time I listened to that part of myself... and I looked at those box of chocolates with pure SADNESS and just walked by and continued on with my shopping!! Is THAT normal??? NO!! FUCK ITS NOT!! So instead of being proud that I did not give in and buy those chocolates I became even more depressed and felt sorry for myself more.. for feeling like a FREAK! Why should I waste so much emotion on passing up a box of chocolates??? THAT IS NOT NORMAL!!! *I* AM NOT NORMAL! So the way I am feeling now, I hate to say it but I don't feel any different than I would have if I had eaten the whole box! It's normal to feel sad if something of yours has been stolen or a loved one was diagnosed with a terminal disease or if your child was diagnosed with something (which is why I am fat again!) Feeling SAD about that is normal, its not normal to feel sad over passing by a box of chocolates! Its pathetic, that is what it is! My priorities are truly fucked up that is for sure. Ugh....
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
i think some sadness is normal - but it gets worse if you see a healthy lifestyle only in terms of what you are losing. and let's be honest here, we are losing something. eating has been our way of dealing with life for who-knows-how-many-years.
it might be helpful to try to focus on what you are gaining - and that differs for each of us. trying to balance the loss with a benefit or a gain might help to lessen the feelings of 'doing without'.
And trust me - you are not as abnormal as you think. We all can relate in some degree to what you are saying, that's for sure!!!
Keep walking by those chocolates and soon it will just become habit to NOT pick them up.
YOU CAN DO IT!!!! Hang in there.
I imagine alcoholics feel remorseful, too, when they go to parties this time of year and everyone's having spiked egg nog and champagne. As an adult, I now realize why the holidays were considered stressful for grown-ups.
There are a million reasons to mourn the passing of those chocolates. Because, of course, it's not about the chocolates. They're merely a symbol. You were walking past something much greater and bigger, and I suspect that's why you were feeling the need to mourn the whole situation.
Personally, I think I should get a reward every time I walk past the bakery and DON'T succumb to the urge to snag a box of homemade peanut butter cookies. I want someone to pop out from behind the baguette display and hand me a hundred dollar bill and say quietly, "Good job."
Unfortunately, the chances of THAT happening are slim to none. So I guess that's why you were compelled to come on this site and write your post.
So I say, "Look at you! Was that the most important decision in your life, or even a life-changing one? Probably not. But it was a bitch to make, and you did it all by yourself, so yay! Congrats, rock star! You're stronger than you think."