I typically do very well during the week with my eating patterns. My trigger foods for occasional binges (which usually occur on Sundays for some reason) are sweets, so I try to avoid them unless it's a special occasion. However,these "special occasion" treats (which I always give myself a limit of two) turn into WAY to many for someone as health-concious as me! I hate this vicious cycle! I almost always get nervous before an event becuase I am scared that I will lose self-control again!
This week I had tech, dress, and dance performances all week, so I suppose my body has been craving more nourishment that I have been giving it. This morning I even woke up with cramps because of the lack of bulk in my system. So my friends decided to take me out to a buffet place after church (wrong move for sure) and of course I went hungry as I was. I did really well with the main course, and wasn't even going to get dessert, but I let myself be pressured into it. To make a long story short, I ate too many sweets on top of the meal and ended up almost PASSING OUT outside of the resturant! I broke into a cold sweat, lost my perifrial vision, and everything started to fade out. I could barely even hear..I felt so naseated and was so appaled! Why did this happen? was it becuase I just hadn't been eating enough during the week and then threw my blood sugar for a roller coaster? Please, anyone help me! I am seeing a councler weekly and that is helping some.I just can't seem to get through the weekend without at least one blow-out. I am so frustrated with myself!
I told my parents (who are currently very concerned for me and want me to gain weight against my wishes) I don't even want to step on a scale b/c I don't want it to mess with my head (seeing it up would make me want to lose, and seeing it down would draw me away from healthy eating. Any advice would be greatly appreciated! How do I kick this sweet habit? I've fasted sweets before...maybe I will do so next weekend just to prevent anything from happening...oh, I am so confused!