I am starting to wonder if there is an end to binge eating. I am an all or nothing personality aslo. I can't have just one chocolate(or whatever the forbidden food may be) and then just keep eating good and still workout. Now I have just given up, like I do after a long time of binging. I am just eating whatever in the h*ll I want. I am more than disgusted with myself. I plan to start over, AGAIN, next week. I was going to start a week ago, then yesterday. But then I talked myself into just starting next week. I want to try hard to eat right and work out, and do it right. I want to see where I can take my body by doing things the right way. But it's so hard for me to even work out when I look and feel like this. I just want to hide. I can't stand the way that my clothes feel on me. And when will I be able to eat one thing once in a while that's fattening with out freaking out and shoveling mass quanities of food down my throat? I am so frustrated and worried. I just want to do this now. I am sick to death of this lifestyle and I have already missed so much in life. I am just frustrated, I have been all week. I am just tired, worried, mad, eager, etc.
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