When i first found this community i was happy to know that i am not alone. before understanding that as a binge eater i had disorder, i thought that there was something seriously wrong with me becuase i would hide and sneak food, i felt so guilty and disgusted with myself. Then i discovered this community and found out that i am not alone, but the thing is, we all have an eating disorder of some sort and we are all struggling to stop our bad habits, but none of us have found a way and i feel that with acceptance in this community, while i apperciate it greatly, makes the disorder worse, while i still feel digusted with myself, i feel a tid bit better knowing i am not alone, and sometimes it takes away the feeling that i am weird and makes me sometimes just want to accpet that i have a disorder--almost wanting to give up on losing weight, it almost makes it acceptable becuase there are so many of us out there...i luv this community, but it is almost like we all have a problem and we all don't kno how to fix it so we just confess our sins to one another and nothing changes...i know change has to come from within, but this community almost makes it harder becuase we are all the same here, we are not the odd ball out
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