Hey everyone, this is my first post. Guess I just need to get my story off my chest. I recently had my worst binge to date, a several day affair where I did little besides eat, watch movies, and sleep. I am usually pretty good at taking care of myself. I don't drink alcohol ever, I exercise most days, and spend most my time studying for a university entrance exam. The strangest thing is that I truly enjoy when everything is right, I eat healthy, feel wonderful after my workout and also feel accomplished for doing what needs to be done. Everything in my life is going great and I have no need to binge but yet I do which makes me feel even worse. Every two or three weeks something snaps and I just go off the deep end and stuff myself full of food, stop taking care of myself, and don't do anything productive. Like a complete 180. Then once I start I can't stop, sometimes the binges are a day, sometimes two. Then I wake up one morning and get back on track so to speak. It takes me a day to recuperate where I beat myself up but after that kind of motivates me back. But this is a vicious cycle and I am tired of it. It seems to be getting a bit better and with longer breaks between binges but then this binge I just wanted to get to that point where I could never go back. I always feel so terrible and zombie-like when I'm binging. Not like myself at all. Please help, any advice or support would be really appreciated. I am already seeing a therapist who I've been going to for a while and she know of this. I also have a close friend and my mom who know of these binges but I just get tired of telling them every few weeks. Anyways thanks for reading for those that did.
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