Hey,ok basically i just want someone to talk to. Someone to understand my problem. No one really knows how bad i suffer from binge-eating. I tried to talk to my friends, saying how much i had eaten but they just said 'i don't believe you'. I feel so hurt and alone and angry with myself that i can't go 3 days without a binge. I really want to stop. I want to loose the weight i've gained, and most of all i want to be happy and i want people to find me attractive. A few years ago i got depressed and lost alot of weight; got down to 5 1/2 stone. The comments that were made about me have scarred me for life. I'm haunted by their disapproving looks, the snide negative words and the shaking of their heads. So i turned to food. I binged and binged, wanting to please people and also to comfort myself. It's got out of control now. I've put on a lot of weight rapidly so people presume i'm ok, but i've been thru hell. I hate food but love it at the same time. It soothes me, it blocks out all negativity and for once i feel accepted and loved. My binging has gone on for over 6 months now and i can't imagine a life without it. I would love to go a day without thinking about it, i would love to enjoy life! Sorry for this being so long, but its such a relief getting everything off my chest to people that may understand me. Thankyou for listening,xxx
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