hi everyone i am new.
i feel like a ton of bricks have just fallen on my head. how could i have not even realised that my overeatng was my root problem, my actual eating disorder. over the last six years have mixed fasting,purging,restricting and dieting to control my weight but all i think about is food, all i want is food and i could eat more than anyone in my town put together i seriously believe sometimes. i am a binge eater, compulsive eating, over eater, food addict. whatever u want to call it. and isnt it ironic that anorexia, bulemia (so called skinny eating disorders) are so much easier to admit to and claim even if maybe you dont truly have them. its because they are glamourised. its cool to b skinny no matter how u did it no matter what u did to yourself. but say im an overeater and o my gosh ur a fatty u get looked down on and judged. thats what i feel anyway i cant talk from experience because i am too embarrassed to tell anybody this. i was open and maybe even disterbingly proud of my so called other eating disorders but this is embarrassing for me.. does anybody else feel that?? i have gotten off track. i dont know where to start.. how do i get help and what do i do???? i have hardly heard of this disorder let alone how to recover. i have suffered since i was a small child. as far back as i can remember i have eaten untill my stomach looked like i was 8 months pregnant and i could hardly breath. i have never imgained a world where food is not always on my mind but now i am starting too and i could cry with happiness. i could live my life! I am not overweight and i do not want to be worrying too much about cals ect because i can tend to lean my obsession onto that