Food Addiction Support Group
An individual suffering from a food addiction disorder frequently experiences episodes of uncontrolled eating, or binging, during which they may feel frenzied or out of control. They will eat much more quickly than is normal, and continue to eat even past the point of being uncomfortably full. Binging in this way is generally followed by a period of intense guilt feelings...
Hi.
All my life I have had an extremely unhealthy relationship with eating. Since I can remember, I've been heavy. I moved to a new state after graduating high school and being sad and lonely, that's when my bingeing began. When I almost reached the 300 mark, I decided enough was enough. Instead of losing it the healthy right way, I became extreme opposite. I started starving myself, sometimes eating only 700 calories a day. I lost 117 pounds in 9 months. For some odd reason, as unhealthy as it was, I was so proud of myself and was so happy being given all these comments about looking so great, etc. I wanted to keep it going...but I started feeling sick. I passed out in a coffee shop and I decided I needed to stop doing what I was doing. I started putting on weight which I was ok with at first. But, I believe it was sometime in February, I noticed that I was not just overeating but being sneaky and bingeing again. I've now gained almost half the weight back and I'm miserable. My eating is out of control but I'm scared to death of becoming so extreme again and getting sick. It's now to a point that I pray I don't run into anyone that had seen me after I lost all the weight. I'm embarrassed of how I look, ashamed, I feel ugly. I'm afraid that when my girlfriend comes to see me next month that she will be disgusted and embarrassed to be seen with me. I'm in this really weird place where I don't know what to do. I just want to cry.
All my life I have had an extremely unhealthy relationship with eating. Since I can remember, I've been heavy. I moved to a new state after graduating high school and being sad and lonely, that's when my bingeing began. When I almost reached the 300 mark, I decided enough was enough. Instead of losing it the healthy right way, I became extreme opposite. I started starving myself, sometimes eating only 700 calories a day. I lost 117 pounds in 9 months. For some odd reason, as unhealthy as it was, I was so proud of myself and was so happy being given all these comments about looking so great, etc. I wanted to keep it going...but I started feeling sick. I passed out in a coffee shop and I decided I needed to stop doing what I was doing. I started putting on weight which I was ok with at first. But, I believe it was sometime in February, I noticed that I was not just overeating but being sneaky and bingeing again. I've now gained almost half the weight back and I'm miserable. My eating is out of control but I'm scared to death of becoming so extreme again and getting sick. It's now to a point that I pray I don't run into anyone that had seen me after I lost all the weight. I'm embarrassed of how I look, ashamed, I feel ugly. I'm afraid that when my girlfriend comes to see me next month that she will be disgusted and embarrassed to be seen with me. I'm in this really weird place where I don't know what to do. I just want to cry.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
I too was a fat kid and after losing tons of weight the unhealthy way i went up and down drastically for 5yrs.
It's got to the stage where no-one dares mention my weight as they don't know where i am with it and don't wish to offend!
my advice is to start with a clean state....
1. forget the past, it is the past and nothing we can do can make us go back and change it so forget about it!
2. take one day at a time, it tends to help me if i wake up in the morning and think right, time for a change!
3. are you aware of food calorie content and how to loose weight by being healhty?
4. find a healthy hobby which you enjoy, my favourite is walking with my ipod, might not be a complete work out but i enjoy it and it keeps me healthy.
6. keep a food diary so you can see what times of the day you are most tempted and what foods you could exchange for a healthier option!
This is just a starting point but it's all about having confidence in yourself and believing you can do it!!
Also this site is amazing for support, when you feel like a binge, log on and remind yourself that your not alone!!!
i also was big all my life and then lost alot of weight. then gained alot back and am struggling to lose it.
it is damaging to your mental health and self estee. but you have to fight. you have to fight to feel better and strong and believe that you are the beautiful person everyone around you sees!
and the steps that have already been posted are so true!
Thank you all again very much.