I'm 24 yrs old and about 5 months ago I went on medical leave from work for some med issues and the fact that I had a seizure. I filled out the paper work and was guaranteed my position when I got back. Well I worked in one dept. of the store and LOVED it and couldn't wait to get back, but when I called the day before my return to see when I work HR said I got switched to another dept. because of a supposed conflict with another associate. I told her that's not fair and that we should have a sit down meeting with a manager, HR, the other associate, and myself to discuss this supposed conflict. She denied me and said my only options were to go to the other dept. or quit. I was still dealing with some very rough depression and told her ok then I quit. I later talked to the associate that the supposed conflict was with and he had NO IDEA who said something and I trusted him cuz he was a good friend. Well, about a few weeks after that my boyfriend dumped me out of the blue- SERIOUSLY and screwed me out of over $800-$1200 that he owed me and just ditched me at my parents while he moved into the apt. I PAID FOR! So, ever since Jan. I've been job hunting and have gone to so many interviews it makes me sick, but nothing! Finally I go to a placement agency and they find me an assignment, but guess what? A routine blood test I had done showed I needed an emergency blood transfusion so I lost the assignment. I feel lucky, but like a loser at the same time. I am so grateful that my parents are letting me stay here and they pay all the bills (well mine are piling up) and my mom even makes sure I have smokes and extra cash if she has any. Almost for the exact same reasons I feel like a loser. What kinda 24 yr old lives off their parents and lets them do so much for them no matter what the situation is? My mom acts like its nothing, but I can see in my stepdad's eye that he's thinking you need to get a job and get the hell out! Problem is, I just got out of a mental facility and I am scared to go back to work eventhough I REALLY, TRULY want to so bad. I'm just worried that emotionally I'm not ready, but on the other hand, will I ever be or do I just have to jump right in? I'm sure to a lot of you I do sound like a huge loser. Just know one thing, I do not sit around just waiting for a job, I'm still applying and interviewing and all of that. Any advice would be great. I just don't know how to face my fears of returning to work. I miss work SO bad its almost pathetic cuz most people can't wait to get off...not me. I guess its the noisiness and all of the people and the fast pace that makes me nervous. I used to get awards all of the time for how hard and fast I worked, but now I feel like a 15 yr old starting their very first job, ya know? Please help and all I ask is that you be gentle cuz I have had extremely rude responses and I do have mental issues I'm dealing with as well so all I ask is for a little kindness. Thanks to all
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