ive been out of work for a year now. I left work because i was struggling with managing my fibro pain and fatigue doing a pyhiscal job. My anxiety levels were very high when i left. I was anxious id not be able to go in and cope with all i needed. Was i fit for the job. Not really i was exhausted constantly. My anxiety and lack of confidence in my self got too much when one day i snapped. I saw my doctor and told them i could not return to work the next day and that i would not cope. So i got signed off there and then. I went into work with my sick note for 3 months off and handed in my notice of 1 month which i didnt have to do as being signed off sick. It was a no brainer i wouldnt cope going back there.
anyway ive been off work a year now. Fibro still not much better, confidence at all time low and high expectations to get back into work.
I want to work but i have no confidence or motivation to get up and apply. Thought of interviews scare me shitless with anxiety. Id aviod preparing for interviews if i got one cos anxiety then id be even more anxious.
im bored at home, im at a point whete its making me more ill being out of work. I cant even find motivation to get voluntary work and thatl be no pressured work.
Why would anyone want me anyway. I suck.
Well, I slept 9 hours! Yeah... I was meant to be at my mom's 90 minutes ago. As you can see... Not hurrying over there. I need an hour to wake up, shower, dress, and just care enough to not go back to bed when it's this kind of fibro-achy day.She's been asking me if I'm okay. A lot. Everyone is wondering what's next. Like, she tried calling me an abuser and nearly had me investigated by cops,...
Good morning!It's going to be ice/rain mix this weekend. Well, yuck!***Adventures in Leo Land:Mom bailed on her cataract surgery, leading to six phone calls to me about that... As if I knew she'd had it scheduled!Hubby lost a shirt to our cat, b/c she tore a two-inch hole in it when he attemptecd to put her in the carrier for her vet visit. He kept repeating, "She tore my shirt?!" for about, oh,...