ive been out of work for a year now. I left work because i was struggling with managing my fibro pain and fatigue doing a pyhiscal job. My anxiety levels were very high when i left. I was anxious id not be able to go in and cope with all i needed. Was i fit for the job. Not really i was exhausted constantly. My anxiety and lack of confidence in my self got too much when one day i snapped. I saw my doctor and told them i could not return to work the next day and that i would not cope. So i got signed off there and then. I went into work with my sick note for 3 months off and handed in my notice of 1 month which i didnt have to do as being signed off sick. It was a no brainer i wouldnt cope going back there.
anyway ive been off work a year now. Fibro still not much better, confidence at all time low and high expectations to get back into work.
I want to work but i have no confidence or motivation to get up and apply. Thought of interviews scare me shitless with anxiety. Id aviod preparing for interviews if i got one cos anxiety then id be even more anxious.
im bored at home, im at a point whete its making me more ill being out of work. I cant even find motivation to get voluntary work and thatl be no pressured work.
Why would anyone want me anyway. I suck.
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