ive been out of work for a year now. I left work because i was struggling with managing my fibro pain and fatigue doing a pyhiscal job. My anxiety levels were very high when i left. I was anxious id not be able to go in and cope with all i needed. Was i fit for the job. Not really i was exhausted constantly. My anxiety and lack of confidence in my self got too much when one day i snapped. I saw my doctor and told them i could not return to work the next day and that i would not cope. So i got signed off there and then. I went into work with my sick note for 3 months off and handed in my notice of 1 month which i didnt have to do as being signed off sick. It was a no brainer i wouldnt cope going back there.
anyway ive been off work a year now. Fibro still not much better, confidence at all time low and high expectations to get back into work.
I want to work but i have no confidence or motivation to get up and apply. Thought of interviews scare me shitless with anxiety. Id aviod preparing for interviews if i got one cos anxiety then id be even more anxious.
im bored at home, im at a point whete its making me more ill being out of work. I cant even find motivation to get voluntary work and thatl be no pressured work.
Why would anyone want me anyway. I suck.
All, I need a bit of help. I went to my GP with generalized pain and asked if it could be fibro. He sent me to a Rheumatologist with the diagnosis of fibro! The Rheumatologist, after about 20 minutes of discussion and questions, decided based on his opinion that I don't have it. When I look at criteria for fibro I match more symptoms than I don't. He sent me back to my GP with a...
theres a film on netflix called unrest. Its not about fibro but about chronic fatigue and ME. Ive watched half of it and i can relate to alot of feelings and the fustrations the women and men in it have. They are very extreme illnesses they have and is different but its relatable in ways.Another disorder that has no medical evidence and how these paitents are viewed ect.Worth a watch.