I have lost alot of things. But the number one thing I have lost on this long list is my child. My family stepped in and are in the process of adopting her out for her benefit. I totally understand it is better for her. But I am dying inside and I am grieving as a mother. I want what is best for her and I know that I am not it. THere are more reasons why this is happening but it is due to my health in most cases. I also have lost my dreams of being a teacher because I can't stand or sit. I can't chase after little kids either. I can't even finish my Bachelor's although I am gonna keep fighting and keep trying. Not to mention the minute to minute pain, fatigue, fog, tiredness etc. that I deal with in regards to FMS. I have lost understanding and compassion from my friends and family. I have lost my ability to completely stay positive with myself. I am great about helping others but not so good with myself. But I am working hard to change things around in my life. I am working hard to get better on every level. But I am still grieving. I have also been "disinvited" to Thanksgiving and Christmas with the family as a whole because I have a family member who is keeping my daughter till the adoption is done. And I am upsetting her too much by talking ot her on the phone. Once I got back home, I can't even see her. So I am doing the best I can. I am sorry to dump this on you guys. But my point to this post is to find out what you guys have lost because of your FMS? And how did you deal with it?
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