Wow. This was... a week that lasted a year on my end.
Positives: I now own enough ground to be buried in. (And will inherit the deed to my grandma's and sister's graves. So I will own enough ground for several peopel to be buried in, but it's occupado. )
I fixed oru Christmas lights. (Hubby was gonna throw out the whole string. I found the bad bulb and fixed it up. Without screaming in frustration. At 11 PM. Because hey, that's when you should freak out about Christmas tree lights, right? No, it couldn't wait till morning. He was bitching too much about the cost of buying more lights. Yeah. Currently on sale for $1.99...)
I got my haircut and lost about a pound of stress off my neck, OMG, glorious layered movement is back!
I decided my Christmas money will be spent on getting red highlights and color done in a couple months.:-) Gotta feel pretty in times of stress,r ight?
Mom has not had to get a transfusion yet! :-) She's holding well enough they will put it off another week and see how her anemia and stuff are in next week's bloodwork, but given the stress of the procedure on someone with her multiple issues.... YAY! The new meds are helping her!
I picked Thursday night football game correctly. WTF? I went against the favorite, and lo, it worked. Small victories count!
I barely needed a PRN at the hairdresser despite the noisy and people factors. (PTSD thumbs up! I took a quarter-dose of the PRN, which, to quote my psychiatrist, "Does that even affect anyone?!" Yes, for about 15 minutes, which got me through my anxiety attack. Ta-da!)
I had two nights in a row this week where I got good sleep.
So... Going into Friday, what's your positives?
The volcano on Bali continues to spew ash like a crazy chimney, screwing up air travel. The good news is, the ash content may end up being enough to knock down global temps by a quarter-degree. That sounds like nothing --- given that Tambora gave us the Year without Summer back in 1815-16, and Krakatoa was blamed for weather problems in the 1880s --- but that quarter-degree can mean the difference. Granted, it can't offset global warming trends overall --- as graphs show, the moving average is increased temps in all corners of the planet --- but this particular volcano helped knock things down by .1-.2 degrees (I always think Celsius, sorry, so that'd be like almost half a degree Fahrenheit) for several months after its last big eruption.
Basically, it's not different from nuclear winter. Ash and gases high in the atmosphere result in blocking of sunlight, refraction of sunlight, and/or changes in chemical composition (sulfur dioxide's a common volcanic gas that combines with stuff to help "scatter" sunlight). Rainfall patterns can shift. Et cetera.
All that said, we're talking a temporary "dip" that would actualy take the globe, as a whole, not too far off the projected warming trend. Much like Tambora 200 years ago... it's over in a couple of years. And it's unlikely we'll see anything like a year without a Summer. We may see some droughts end, or ease up. That kind of thing. And bear in mind, even the rather epic Mount St. Helens eruption of 1980 had no real cooling effect. Instead, it dumped Carbon Dioxide (greenhouse/warming gas) into the atmosphere in one day about what we emit from fossil fuel use in... oh, three hours or so. (Yes, did a project on that eruption, sorry, nerded out.)
Point being... we won't know till we know, and at this point, we can kinda sorta hope, since volcanoes in the Indonesian region historically have helped cool the planet for a year or two. (Tambora is the most notable.)
Meanwhile, Iceland had a fissure eruption in the 1700s that put out so much sulfuric crap that it helped worsen famines and cold across the entire northern hemisphere. Famine was a contributing factor to peasant unrest that led to the French Revolution of 1789.
And that brings us back to the problem of ... localized versus globalized effects. If,s ay, Agung goes boom, and only lowers temps in that region by 5* Fahrenheit for a year or two... tha'ts nice, but it won't offset warming or anything elsewhere. May give you nice sunsets, that's about it.
A British commercial flight lost all its engines due to volcanic ash... and got out of it alive. It led to the establishment of today's modern volcanic ash warnings, and closing/diversion of air travel. The ash in that case wasn't even from a major eruption. The airplane's windscreen was scoured to the point that the pilots couldn't see through it. Consider that. Scoured *glass* from windscreen clear to "oh crap that's like looking through milk". (Incident occurred 1982. Why did it take so long? Well, frankly, jets weren't flying that high, nor that often, and so forth... the numbers of flights, and the flights at high altitudes, finally reached the point where some intercepted volacnic ash. British Air Flight 9 is still a noted historical moment in flight. How nobody worried about volcanoes *before* that, I do not know.)
Of course, on a more immediate and local level, nobody can see through the crap soup of the ash and crud from Agung. No idea whether it'll make a big boom, taper off, spew for six month, or if the bulge on the flank will collapse inward and cause a Mt. St. Helens-style change in profile or what.
Interesting note: Before Mt. St. Helens in 1980, nobody realized volcanoes can explode *sideways* and directionally. Again, jsut nobody ran into it before (and lived, and wrote it down, basically), so... boom-poof. Vulcanologists (no, they don't study Star Trek, they're volcano specialists) were astonished and had to rework all sorts of stuff in their field.
If youw ant a dangerous science specialty, go into vulcanology. Lst I heard, it has the highest on-the-job mortality rate of any science specialty. Even beats geologists in general, who're pretty good at falling off rock faces and all that.
Off to drink hot cocoa to celebrate: IT IS FRIDAY AND WE MADE IT!
Many puma hugs:-)
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