I don't know where to begin it feels like I have had Fibromyalgia my whole life. My childhood I remember also feeling nausea, I could never wake up in the morning at all I was always late to school, I always felt my body was in pain and people was always cruel to me. My childhood I was molested, mentally abused, and physically abused. My "Mom" was 13 when she was pregnant with me and had me at 14. I never met my father don't even have a name. I saved my grandfather at age 7 he had a battle with seizures ad would end up saving him 4 or 5 more times in my life. I left my cult family at age 17 and would graduate with me GED in 2006. Wow, that was 10 yrs ago crazy to think about. In the household I grew up I didn't know what love, affection, or positivity meant. I always had to be on the defensive. I was bullied in middle school and high school. I always was told I was a pussy for not being able to defend myself and my own family even paid the neighborhood bully to beat me up in High School. Well, at 17 I left and would end up moving back there from time to time. I hated living there my family was so negative and would not allow you to get better medically, physically, or spiritually. I would have panic attacks and would be prescribed Xanax 1 mg and would take them as prescribed but according to them I was high. When I got my GED in 2006/2007 I was named The Student of The Year and was able to give a speech to my family who actually showed up and I thanked everyone but them. They took offense to it because I was supposed to thank them for raising me but they never raised me. I was forced in the 5th grade to get a job. My uncle moved out when I was young then it was me and my grandfather after my grandmother moved out because she was cheating on him. Then after they could not cut it by themselves they came back and took over our house. In 2012 I rekindled with someone who would become my wife while living with my family an old friend of the family came back to visit and we hit it off which pissed them off even though we are both adults. We started to date and she became pregnant which was a blessing in disguise. My family hated me and her together so they kept trying to split us up and her family hated me because of what they heard and because I am 8 years older then she is. They tried to split us up....After we found out she was pregnant I was getting very sick I would puke next her while she would puke with morning sickness. My temp at one point was 106 F my fiance tried to have my family take me to the ER they declined to take me. Furious my fiance said if you are like this in the morning you are going to the ER which I said yes. On the way to the cell phone store I couldn't walk and still had a temp. I made it to the ER they shook her hand and told her if she would have waited an hour longer I would have died. I spent the next month in the hospital with Divercultis waiting day by day to see if I needed surgery. I would never have surgery and would be readmitted time and time again. The straw that broke both of our families backs was when we was kicked out of our home on the day before Thanksgiving. She would live with her sister while I was homeless going from hotel to hotel then I would live in a homeless shelter. While in the homeless shelter and still battling from Diverculitis I was informed of meeting her mom, her brother, and her sister well this was a shit on Brett meeting I was told even though I am in a homeless shelter I need a job what are you guys going to do? This is not like a pet bullshit. I was chewed for 3 hours. So I went and got a job after we moved into our apt two months later. Now in 2013 Not even two weeks into the new apt we was visited by the CPD stating they got calls regarding traffic to our address which was bullshit. The only traffic was from people dropping our things off and helping us move in. They left and then a couple days later we got a meeting someone I am assuming it was her family printed a bunch of my Facebook posts and gave it to our landlords which is public government housing. We left that meeting nothing happened they just wanted to scare us then one day after work I was naked in the shower my fiance heard a knock at the door it was the VICE unit they searched our apt to find NOTHING. Then in the same year I woke up with half of my face drooping to the side and my right side of my eye swollen shut. I go the hospital and they was like why are you talking like this? I was like I don't know that is why I am here it turns out I had Bells Palsy. In the same year with only having our daughter outside the hospital for only 48 hours when my fiance's sister called CPS on us because my fiance had a blood clot in her lung and I stayed at the hospital and was not home our then cats we had was marking their terrority and instead of cleaning it up for us. She left it and called CPS on her own sister. I had to take a drug test and was not aloud to be around my own daughter or wife for 2 weeks. Then in 2014 I was robbed at gunpoint while going to a gas station and the cops never arrested him since he only gotten away with my wallet. In 2015 I caught C-Diff and had it all year then finally got rid of it after I lost my job for having it and working at an office. Now after all this I finally got the answer I was searching for what makes me unable to wake up not until 1pm or 2pm. Why do I have all this pain? Why do I feel like I am going to throw up after a shower? I have my answer Fibromyalgia. I was diagnosed one day after my PCP kicked me out of his office by his clinic because they told me I was rude calling them for an earlier apt because my doctor is overbooked and because I got my panic pills 2 days earlier I was kicked out for rude behavior towards staff and not following the drug policy which is absurd. It makes me wonder if they already knew my condition and since he is over booked they just let me go. I never had any warnings or anything. On top of that I have pain all day and night and can't even go the ER because I am on some kind of care plan because I would go to the ER in pain and they didn't have any answers and labeled me as seeking. Welcome to my life :)
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