I am so lost right now. I was diagnosed about 6 yrs ago with Fibromyalgia. Then 3 yrs ago with Degenerative disc disease in my T-6 adn T-7 in my mid back. Then arthritis. I also have carpal tunnel in both wrists. I was a meat cutter since the age of fourteen. I no longer work I am thirty five. I am also a single mother of two wonderful children for 10yrs now. They are ten and twelve. I live in a very low populated area. The only doctor I can find to prescribe me pain medications is a psychiatrist. I go to a pain clinic. They no longer prescribe me pain medications, because I told them I tried marijuana a couple of times for the pain. It helped my fibro syptoms, and also my moods. I quickly stopped, as I was never into that kind of thing I tried it two or three times in high school. The pain clinic dropped me from all pain medications. I explained this to my psychiatrist and he thought this to be very stupid. So he said he would prescribe my pain meds for me. I have always had a personal issue with being on narcotics. This comes from a fear of being young, and worried about the future and what will happen, as I know the nature of needing more as you get older. Well now my psych, wants me to try Lyrica and get off them all together. There is no way I can. They allow me to move, and function. I have not yet started the Lyrica and all I have researched I cannot afford to go through the side effects, as I am alone, and the only one who can care for my children. I do not know where to turn right now. This has been the most difficult thing to deal with in my life,and I have been through a lot. Abuse,as a child, and just alot as I am sure many of us have. I do not know what to do. I feel like I need to move or something. Michigan is doing very poor economically. Also where I live in the last year or so there have been many articles in the paper of the dangers of doctors writing prescriptions for narcotics. It just seems that I am in a no win situation. A month ago my psychiatrist was going to up my dose of Norco to oxycotin (spelling?) now he wants me off the narcotics all together, so I am very confused. It is like, I am losing all hope. The pain medications, are allowing for me to function on a daily basis, to at least get up, get my children off to school, cook and clean, try and maintain some kind of household with little or no money. If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know. I feel like I am 70yrs old most of the time. I am 35, I never go anywhere. I sit at home, unless my children are in sports, then I go to there activities. If we have extra money I take them out. Life is passing me by. When I am not depressed and worried about what my doctor is going to do next or if I am going to be cut off, I make soaps, candles, paint, dance around my house, sing, and life is pretty good, but right now I am living in so much fear. Did you know that in Canada they sell Vicodin over the counter? I think of that sometimes. My last doctor told me that I would be a perfect candidate for medical use marijuana. I cannot see him anymore as he is an in-county doc, I am out of that county. I am just confused and lost, I hope I make sense right now, as I am crying right now :( Thanks.
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