Since developing FM, shopping in regular stores has become an exercise in agony. When my symptoms are really bad, I cant go shopping because the crowds, hard floors, bright lighting and need for attention to detail are all too much for me. Yesterday I was feeling pretty good able to go out shopping. The first store we went to wasn't crowded but the fluorescent lights were absolutely glaring. I was in that damn store not more than 5 minutes before becoming overwhelmed, especially after a huge hassle trying to get the one item I went to that store for. I had to go to the post office afterwards, and what is normally a simple task using the automatic mail machine to send stuff took me forver because my mind was so foggy. My inability to think straight lasted the rest of the trip, which took longer because it was hard to make decisions, and I hurt like crazy by the time I got home. All I can see is thank god for my patient and helpful partner, and the Internet. I am also thankful that for the first time since 2004, I don't feel totally crappy during the holidays.
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