SOOOO, I WOKE UP FEELING LIKE TOTAL HELL THIS MORNING BUT I KNEW I HAD A LOT TO DO SO I THOUGHT ID JUST TRY TO PUSH THROUGH IT, THAT ID FEEL BETTER WHEN IT WAS ALLL DONE AND I COULD SIT BACK AND BE PROUD OF MYSELF........WELL, AFTER GETTING A FEW THINGS DONE OUTSIDE, I MOVED TO MY YOUNGEST SONS BEDROOM. HE HAS ASPERGERS SYNDROME AND HAS A HARD TIME DOING WHAT HES TOLD SO I DECIDED I WOULD CLEAN HIS ROOM TO MY EXPECTATIONS AND THAT INCLUDED A FEW TOYS THAT HE HAS DISMEMBERED. NOW, I REMEMBER SMELLING SOMETHING BURNING THE OTHER DAY AND DID MY ROUNDS TO EACH ROOM AND DIDNT FIND ANYTHING. I JUST FIGURED IT WAS COMING FROM OUTSIDE. HA! IT APPEARS THAT MY SON CAUGHT HIS ROOM ON FIRE! IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROOM THERE IS A BIG DARK BROWN SINGED SPOT, OHH ID SAY BIGGER THAN A BASKETBALL! AND HIS CHAIR THAT PULLS OUT TO A BED WAS ALSO SCORCHED! HOLY CRAP! WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH FM YOU ASK? WELL, I TELL YOU WHAT, IF I HAVE EVER FELT LIKE MY BODY WAS TOO HEAVY TO LIFT, AND MY MUSCLES WERE STRETCHED TO THE MAX IT WOULD BE NOW! I CANT BREATHE, I CANT EVEN CRY! HAVING FM AND TRYING TO DEAL WITH A CHILD LIKE THIS IS MORE THAN I CAN TAKE. I GET MAD AT HIM, I GET MAD AT HIS BIO MOTHER FOR BEING CRACKED OUT WHILE KNOCKED UP, AND FOR RUNNING AWAY FROM HER CHILD LEAVING HIM TO HAVE EMOTIONAL DETACHMENT! (HE ALSO SUFEFRS FROM CRACK BABY SYNDROME) I DONT HAVE THE ENERGY FOR THIS AND I NEED A BREAK! SORRY IF THIS IS IN THE WRONG CATAGORY BUT IM TRYING TO TAKE A TIME OUT! HES SUPPOSED TO BE DOING HIS HOMEWORK AND HES IN THE KITCHEN SCREWING AROUND INSTEAD! SPENDING HIS TIME CRYING ABOUT HAVING TO DO IT INSTEAD OF JUST DOING IT. SO I SET THE TIMER AND TOLD HIM HE HAD BETTER HAVE IT DONE (WAS SUPPOSED TO DO IT IN CLASS BUT REFUSED). CALGON TAKE ME AWAY!!!!!!
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