i just got engaged to the best man ever and we were planning on having kids in the next few years. this is before the illness really took hold. i have to admit after reading a lot of peoples comments i have become twice as scared as i was before. mornings take awhile lately but after a cup of coffee, 20mg of methadone, and an hour or so to get moving i usually do pretty well. i try to walk around at least a few miles a day when i can. and chores around the house are ok for the most part. not pleasant, but when were they? is it because i take narcotic pain meds that i do better? or does it just get worse with time? i also was put on anti-depressants that i did not take because i am not depressed. are most people taking them for a pre-existing depression? or were they just given by the doctor? i was a former heroin user and had some doubts about using addictive pain meds at first, but i got over that very quickly. the reason my old addiction was so bad was it stopped me from doing the things that i loved doing when i was sober, like being with my friends and family, playing music, working at a job i love, ect... now i find that the only thing that keeps me from those things is pain, not the meds. methadone seems to work so well for me, i guess i am just trying to understand why some people who can't even do more than take a shower in a day, won't take a medicine that could change all of that overnight. can i have kids still i guess is the main question though. and will they be affected by the disease/ i'm just learning all of this stuff and i'm freaking out. any answers would be greatly appreciated.
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