I just don't know how much longer I can take it. My husband is emotionally abusive. He bullies me all day long everyday. He is a trust fund baby, so he gets enough money from his trust to financially support us without working. He uses me as an excuse why he cannot work. He tells his family he has to take care of me and the kids. But he does nothing except pick on me constantly. I just wish he would go away. If he is not laying around and creating messes he is following me making little rude comments all day long. He keeps at it till I finally lash back. Sometimes I say horrible things in return after hours of relentless picking. I know I shouldn't I'm just so desperate to get him away I loose it. I'm afraid to leave because I don't know how I would financially support myself and my kids. I feel like even if I do get a job then he will try to get custody as then I would have to put them in daycare. The thing is he isn't fit to care for them. When he does "watch" them he doesn't keep a good eye on them. He's too busy watching tv or talking on the phone. They are only one and three. I fear for their safety. I don't have the money to fight his high priced lawyers either. I just can't stand this for myself or my children anymore. I'm so lost and alone. If it was just me no question I'd be gone, but I can't live without my kids, and if he decides to take them I don't know how to stop him. Anyways, I just needed to unload I've been holding this in for so long. Sorry if I rambled.
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