I just want to say thankyou to all the lovely and helpful replies i have had to my posts. Ive only been here a few days, but its been great. I cant really talk to my close family about much of what im going thru and its good to know i can get help here. I had been feeling pretty awful. I had been very cross with myself just before xmas. I had gone shopping for gifts with my hubby and had to stop the trip early as my arms and legs and back were screaming at me to stop. I got home and took painkillers but felt angry. Im also, ( and excuse me for being so honest ) very concerned that even, lets say, marital relations are not the same. I find i get pain then too and even being hugged can hurt if they do it too hard! Ive been with my hubby since i was 17. Im 37. Hes the only man i have known that way and am really upset that this has been affected too. Have other people found this? I want to feel at peace with it all, but at the moment am just feeling stunned and also angry at what ive lost. Im now going to make a cup of tea and try to eat some lunch. The FM has affected my appetite and if i dont eat, my parents moan that ive lost too much weight and that " Maybe if you ate more, you wouldnt get those pains"
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