If you don't like cursing don't read this and don't act like I didn't warn you.I don't feel like using symbols.There I was about 7:20 when all of a sudden I started shaking uncontrollably I tried to calm it down with a xanax but to no prevail.We're talking full on looks like I'm having a seizure shakes.The medics came and were even freaked out.BP was 149/103 pulse 130.The medic had to hold my hands down on my knees to do some reading because I was shaking so bad.Anyways then another medic came that was here last month and said didn't you have a panic attack like this last month and I said no I'm not having a panic attack and I didn't have a panic attack then, then the cocksucker just goes on and on about well didn't they tell you panic attack last time you went I said this is not the same as last time, piece of shit.He's so convinced I'm not even having chest pains and he gives me baby aspirin explain that.They didn't give me baby aspirin last time.Keep in mind I am shaking uncontrollably the whole time,I get to the hospital and the stupid cunt doctor doesn't even come in to see me until 9:00.I think I got there at 7:30.I shook until probably a little after 8:30.This fucking bitch comes in without checking anything and says you had a panic attack and I start arguing with her.Also if she checked the monitor my heart rate was over 100 resting the whole time I was there and no I wasn't nervous because I took my xanax and the hospital doesn't make me nervous.So anyway this fucking bitch goes on to tell me well I went through your chart and you've been here 12 times since May,this being your twelfth time and everytime you've been here all signs point to panic attacks.HELLO when I went the first couple times it was for my back and leg pain and nothing else!!!!!So I'm arguing with her about my symptoms and telling her I've had anxiety for 10 years this is not a panic attack I think I would fucking know.Ya I will give panic attacks credit you do sometimes start shaking for maybe 5 minutes, ten tops and that includes calming down.I shook for almost an hour seeing my body shake!!!!!It was so scary it was way worse then my wake up tremors.Fuck that doctor how dare she just assume and not do anything.She said she wasn't ordering no tests because all my tests have been normal in the past and i said yeah nothing like this has happened in the past.This woman is such a fucking troll.I was calm enough to walk out when my ride got there.The nurse said you're leaving before we discharge you and I said yeah she said she's not doing anything for me no need to wait for nothing to happen.In this town all the doctors coincide together if you have anxiety on your record they will blame every thing on it so they don't have to do anything.Oh you broke your finger,it's just anxiety.Broken leg,panic attack.My doctor is even getting fed up with my new symptoms and asked me about seeing a therapist.WTF ever!!! I am so upset I don't know what to do.What happened to me was tremendously scary and if it were a panic attack the xanax that I chew up would've made it go away within 10 minutes or less.Sorry this is so long and for the curse words I'm just so upset I can't stand it.I even thought to myself on the way there Okay you feel scared now but at least maybe now they'll take you seriously,run some real tests,and maybe observe you for at least 12 hours so they can see I'm not crazy.I was wrong,I believe I'm destined to die a slow, painful, anxiety filled, strange symptoms death.
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