I have lived my entire life for everyone else. As a child I took care of my very immature, narcissistic mom and pretty much raised my siblings. I had children and married young. Which honestly I never intended my life plan to be, but I loved it. I worked my butt off because I enjoy working, it's what I always wanted. Then I got sick.... and sicker .... and sicker. My career ended. Our financial situation got worse and worse. Our marriage strained. My spouse got cancer. I learned who our real friends were. Now we're trying to rebuild. We have been for nearly two years. We've lost multiple family members in 6 months. It is just one defeat after another and I'm a wreck. I don't take care of myself because we're always in crisis mode.
Now our 2 youngest children just graduated. We wanted to support them through college but it's just not viable. We can't afford our current home or city. We can't take care of anyone anymore. We are both sick. I don't know what to do. I need to focus on my health, my symptoms and flares just seem to be getting worse and worse. I'm too young for my life to be over. But we have no resources, very little support, and no clue where to start. Where do I go from here? I want a fresh start, a new life, I want to see the world, and I don't want to be sick anymore.
Here's hoping there are no weird errors online or in life. And to keep it short b/c I only woke up at 9 AM after being up till 3 AM...GROUP HUG!
OK, I am just gonna type something quickly b/c I had nothing prepared and we had a windstorm and neighbors' cats and I was up by 5 AM and slept maybe 4 hours and have gotten FIVE Back End Fetch errors just trying to get this far on DS today... DS can fetch its own back end, hmph! PUrrs and Friday joy to all!OK, try six... CSRF token is invalid. What?!