I am just feeling so sad and alone right now. I hate this sickening disease and I feel like it has compleatly taken over my life. I have been racking my brain for months trying to figure out how to start working again, or what I was going to do when my short term disability ran out if I couldn't return to work... well here I am with only one week left and I have NO freaking clue what to do. I am misrable. I am so angry that the insurance company is making me jump through hoops to prove how sick I am when I can't even get up to clean my house or do simple everyday tasks! I can't keep my thoughts straight, or remember when my bills are do, or sleep! I feel like I am running against a brick wall and I am so tired. I just want to go somewhere and rest and have everything taken care of for a little while. But it doesn't work that way does it? I feel like this is killing me. I have no relife. Everyday I wake up in agonizing pain and use all my energy just to shower and make it to the couch where I sit all day in pain, unable to do ANYTHING!
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