Fibro is tuff enough with out added pressures. Hang in there.

I'm so sorry sweetie. You wouldn't actually hurt yourself would you? I know it's not much but we are here for you! This is a tough spot your in, but what if things get better? Don't you want to stick around to find out? Besides, we need you around. Together we can give hope to each other. I just found out I have this stupid disease and I need your support. I couldn't imagine living with my Dad again so I know it has to be so hard. (((Big Hug))Jen

Please don't give up -- we all hate this fibro- but hope there will be something that helps will turn up soon so just please hang in there - you have all of us here at DS do you have a minister you can talk to? sending you big hugs -- donaP

so sorry sweetie hang on life will get better . there is life after fibro /hugs mable

Do you have someone outside of your family that you can talk to about your situation? I know that having FM on top of your personal issues with your family is a heavy burden to carry, but there must be someone you can turn to for comfort. You should be in counseling so that you have a place you can go to feel free to talk about your pain and fears. I hope you find your way through this. At the very least let your doctor know that it is all emotionally too much for you, he or she should be able to talk with you or refer you to someone else. Hang in there hun...hugs jilly

OH SHELL, I FEEL YOUR PAIN, PLEASE TELL US THAT YOU WILL NOT DO ANYTHING TO YOURSELF, THAT REALLY SCARES US AND WE WANT OT LOVE NAD SUPPORT YOU BUT YOU HAVE TO WORK WITH US, YOU KNKOW THAT YOU ARE LOVED HERE AND WE NEED YOU, SO DON'T GO TALKING LIKE THAT. WE CAN MAKE IT THRU THIS, IS THERE NO WAY OUT AT ALL? IS THERE NO ONE ELSE YOU CAN LIVE WITH. WHAT IS THE DEAL WITH YOUR PARENTS. ARE THEY THE REASON YOU FEEL LIKE THIS? PLEASE BABY TALK TO US....LOVE

PLEASE shell01, DO NOT DO anything drastic such as killing yourself, please talk to one of us here on DS and can help you in anyway we can. We are all friends here, and are here for each other in time of need etc. I will pray for you three times daily until we hear from you again. PLEASE let us know how you are doing.

I can honestly say I know how your feeling, as a matter of fact I posted something quite similar to this only days ago, I will tell you that posting this will bring you all sorts of kindness and great advice. Fibromyalgia is nothing short of devastating, but it's a part of you,and as I have realized you can and will learn to live with it. There are so many positive things in life, so many things that are worth more then the pain, that make all the suffering worth it(I know it's hard to believe) Don't be afraid to ask for help from everyone. I am still kind of stuck in my own destructive web so I'm sorry I'm not more help, but just like there are bad days, there are good days too, the bad days seem to outnumber the good, but the good are still there regardless, we were all dealt an unfair hand, but we are not alone

Thanks everyone, this has helped me not do something stupid tonight

I understand.

it is very discouraging to feel so dependent. I do have to say, however, that what issues other people have regarding something that happened to you as a child are NOT your responsibility. You were a kid when it happened, and they were the adults who didnt protect you. You dont owe anybody anything. Perhaps it would be better to find a way to be on your own so you dont feel beholding to the same people who have issues. There are all kinds of help out there for disabled people, including public housing, Medicaid, food stamps, and general assistance. Dont be too proud or too ashamed to do what is best for YOU. If you get to a point where it is all too much, check yourself into the hospital and let them help you with some of this.

I know in the last few days it has crossed my mind more than once to end the pain but then again it would be my pain not others.

I am relieved that you didn't do anything to yourself. Please try to remember that currently there is no cure for what we all have, but I expect some kind of 'something' for relief in the near future. I consider all of us to be the Pioneers who will stand up and scream to 'normals' what we have.....until they finally begin to listen.

For your sake....you must find some other way to rid yourself of the stressful environment that you are being bombarded with now. The more stress I am exposed to, the sicker I become.

Do you have a friend you could live with? Perhaps another family member? A shelter of some kind? If not.....please don't give up on yourself....you are stronger within than you think you are!

gentle hugs.....

You are my daughters Age...and I know that if my child were in the Pain you are in right now I would do ANYTHING I could to calm her stressors..I know all to well about abuse and its rippleing affect...you need to TALK to someone...better someone who understands and would Never put any Blame on you for anything...
How would Your Death heal their Pain ? If One of my Children did that it would Kill me...not End my Pain !

you CAN get passed this...you NEED to get to some HELP..if you have No one that you feel comfortable with at this point in your Life then I will give you my phone #...I have Been thru Abuse...of every kind...Both as a Child and as an Adult...I have had a life threatening medical condition and I have FM/CFS...so I completely Understand your Mindset...And I can Promise you that you CAN get thru it...there is Nothing you can say that I have not felt...there is Nothing you can say that will shock Me...I do not know your Story...I have made it thru, at times it took me to my knees...but while there I did alot of Praying and soul searching...and I am Now firmly on 2 feet again....and once you have made it thru...you can turn around and reach out to Another who is where you once were...that is your Saveing Grace...because Abuse will never stop...and there are People in this World that will Need your Help and Prayers one day...Please Believe Me...

Prayers to you that you Find Peace in your Life...I am right here if you ever Feel the Need to Reach Out..

Bonnie

I WAS WHERE YOU ARE ONCE IN MY LIFE, IT WAS THE WORST DEPRESSION I HAD EVER BEEN IN. IT HAD ME NAILED TO THE BED FOR ABOUT 6 MONTHS.I SO FELT LIKE THERE WAS NO REASONE FOE ME TO BE HERE, BUT ONE THING FINALLY STOPPED ME, NO MATTER WHAT THE ABUSE WAS THAT I WAS CARRING AROUND WASN'T WORHT THE DESTRUCTON THAT I WOULD LEAVE BEHIND. I DID THAT FOR MY FAMILY AND SLOWLEY THINGS STARTED TO CHANGE, I FOUND A CHJURCH THAT I COULD GO TO ON SUNDAYS AND THAT HELPED ME 100%, I GOT MYSELF INTO A GRIEF COUNSELING CLASS AND FOUND OUT ALOT ABOUT MYSELF THAT I DIDN'T KNOW. I'M NOT SAYING THAT IS WHAT YOU NEED TO DO, BUT IT WOULD BE SO GOOD TO GET OUT OF THE ENVIROMENT, EVEN FOR ONE DAY. A CHURC WOULD AMKE PROVISIONS FOR YOU TO ATTEND IF YOU WANTED TO GO. THEY ARE WILLING TO PICK YOU UP AND TAKE YOU BACK HOME AND YOU COULD MAKE SO MANY FRIENDS LIKE THAT. ONES WHO COULD CALL YOU OR MAYBE COME BY. I THINK ALOT OF WHAT YOU SUFFER IS LONLINESS AND I SUE UNDERSTAND THAT. YOU FEEL SO TRAPPED BY YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES AT YOUR PARENTS HOME. IF I COULD, I'D SWOOP YOU UP AND BRING YOU HERE WITH ME,CIRCUMSTANCE WON'T ALLOW ME TO, BUT MY HEART IS THERE. I LOVE YOU SHELL AND ANYTIME YOU WANT TO TALK, I CAN CALL YOU IF YOU WANT. I'D BE HAPPY TO ......LOVE YOU....HELEN