i did not want to get out of bed this morning. i knew i had to because today is payday. i would have some very upset employees if the checks where not ready by lunch time. my shoulders hurt, my arms hurt, my lower back hurts, my hips hurt, my legs hurt, the bottom of my feet hurt. my husband is most of the time very understanding. we have had a lot of stuff going on in our lives with our extended family. i'm sure it is because of everything that he snaped at me this morning. GOD i just don't know how much more of this pain i can take. i am so tired of feeling so tired. i am sick of feeling so sick. it is hard to deal with this when you know there is no end in site. at least with a cold you know you will get over it. at least with the flu you know you will get over it. where do you all get your strength. i am not sure i can find any any more. i want to crawl up in a little ball in a corner somewhere but then again it would hurt to much to do that. i quite drinking some 8 years ago. i am begining to wonder if some crown royal would help my pain. i'm kiddin'. i would not start drinking again. i do not like the way it makes me feel. i need strength. i need wisdom, i need ... i don't know way i need. i want this to go away! i want to STOP HURTING! i want my life back.
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