Just wanted to say thank you all for your support!
I have been very sick..
I am now better , didn't realize how sick I was until I got better ... lol
I have been gone for about a week or two, while I was away a friend of mine suffered a loss.
I want to say im sorry I wasn't here to support you with that ...
Just know you were in my thoughts and prayers, you know who you are!
Also I logged in and outside of the messages I received from everyone telling me they were thinking and praying for me, I also got a message from my darling friend, that is a sister to us ALL within this disease we call fibromyalgia YES sister , we are all sisters in case everyone forgot? The same friend that suffered the loss might I add.

This is a support site, not a boxing ring by the way, nor is this the "real world". I have to wonder how cocky one would be if they were not sitting behind the screen ?
Why must everyone rip each other apart verbally ?
If you lived beside each other would it be the same ?
If the ones you cant tolerate on this site were hungry would you offer them the food from your own cabinet ?
I sure hope the answer to that is yes.
I want everyone to imagine this:
Your child dies, you have fibromyalgia, this happens right after the holiday season we are to be Thankful for! You log on to get support from your friends on D/s...
What you end up doing is referee a verbal argument that it ignorant!
We are all guilty for lashing out, we are entitled to do so ...
We are also the ones that have to go to bed at night and think about the things we have said to each other and how it impacted the day for the person we so greatly lashed out on...
Hate:
Waisted emotion- only you hurt from hatred, the person you hate don't care, It will in return eat you alive from guilt!
I hated this chick one time, I seriously hated her I thought lol
I was 15, she didn't lose one moment of sleep over the month I spent hating her, I on the other hand was sleep deprived for a solid month... how stupid was I?
I will tell ya now, it didn't effect her at all....
She is now one of my best friends !
So, while you are lashing out randomly at one another remember one thing...
You just may be cursing and shouting at your future best friend.
The words we say to each other will leave tremendous impact for the rest of our lives, I still apologize to my friend for my actions, she still smiles and says its ok Jessica!
Glad she has the Gift of forgiveness , she was however the person standing beside me when my father passed away...
As I said the words we say to each other will impact us tremendously, It impacted me more so than her...
I still feel guilt for the things I said to her, she is still not losing sleep...
I wonder why I deserve such a forgiving friend ?
I assume its because I am human bound for mistakes..
As we are all Human , don't forget that little part of yourself..
And also, while casting stones from your glass house, I hope we don't get really cold weather because chances are, your gonna be one big freeze pop LOL
Much love and respect to all...
No direct punt intended to anyone.
When speaking of me, you cant do any damage I have not put on myself already at some time or another.
I sleep with those mistakes and don't need to be reminded of my failures, I punish myself enough. Just as everyone else does..
Jessica~
much love and respect to all !