I'm having a really bad day today. This seems to be the way it's started going for me over the last few weeks. I'm a person who wants to do so much and am trapped in a body that can only do little bits. It's depressing, frustrating, and draining. Sometimes I wonder if life is worth it, then I think of my daughter, husband, & dog and know that I have to continue to be strong because they are so worth it. I just feel so alone because they don't understand it and I'm so tired of being strong. I've had to be that all my life from as far back as I can remember and I just wish for one day, someone else would be the strong one and take care of me. The stress of my life (from a child) has taken it's toll on me physically, emotionally, and mentally. So much so that I often feel like I'm crazy or going insane. I just want to be "NORMAL". I just want a happy life. Just one time before I die, I want to feel like I'm worth something and that my life and all I've had to endure was worth something to someone. I just want to be "free".
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