I've been lurking on this board for awhile now, reading and learning, but not posting. I guess I felt that all I had to contribute was a very confused person who was lost, and in pain and I didn't want to bring people down...however, today I woke up and realized I had to fight back harder. That I couldn't just "sit and wait for things to get better" like the last 4 doctors I saw told me. Tomorrow I have a Doctors Appointment with a woman who seems more willing to hear me than anyone else has, so tomorrow I hope I take the first step to getting my life back. Looking for streangth and advice in this comming conversation. Thank you all for the words you have shared here. Your strength helps me, you wisdom teaches me, your bad days let me know I'm not alone.
i just met with a friend. I drove a hour to see her, saw her 2 hours and started to cry and not being able to control it so i asked if she didnt mind if i went home. She understood and i drove a 1 hour back home. Ive just got home and in desperatly trying not to cry. I dont know whats wrong with me. I havent cried since xmas. I dont know if im sad, tired or what. I know im a tired actually but...