I am so sorry for you Blonde. I probably cannot help you except to say that I AM exactly where you are right now and possibly even where your hubby is. Worse yet, my husband is right here with me and he is emotionally and every other which way unavailable to me. So I am alone. Aside from which I am having horrible problems with my daughter.

I feel for you so much I am praying for you. I feel that I cannot pray for myself right now, I just can't do it. But I AM praying for you....and I know you will get through this....hopefully sooner than you think!

Love, prayers, comfort and peace to you....
hugs,
Morus

convent?
what cult is that hon
im so sry for your pain hon
sometimes we have to hit rock bottom to start climbing again
i know i did
let the docs do what they have to do
take the meds
for depression etc
just remember its ok to reach out for help in your community too

Sorry you are going through this. We are here for you. I am here for you too morus. will be praying for you both marilyn

This is one of my absolute favorite passages from the Bible. It also happens to be a prayer and I am praying it for you.

"For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power thru his spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts thru faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge - that you may be filled to the measure of the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurabley more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen." Ephesians 3:14-21

I God with that kind of love will never abandon you. I hate the hurt you are going thru and you will be in my thoughts and prayers. Please keep us updated on how you are doing. You are loved.

DEAR FATHER IN HEAVEN I COME TO YOU IN PRAYER, PLEASE I BEG OF YOU HELP BLONDE. HELP HER GET THROUGH THIS TIME OF DESPAIR AND LET HE KNOW IT IS YOU.I ASK THIS IN JESUS NAME AMEN.
LOVE TRISH

Hi Blonde. I am not in your position. I have gone thru a divorce in my life. The main thing is that you have to look after your own health before you can help your husbandd. This f/m takes a toll out in each person. I am sure that you are going thru hell. I also had problems with my daughter. Sometimes everything gangs up on you. Take a step back and look after yourself. Once you feel better then you may be able to handle the other stress in your. I was told once that when you let the stress in you are also alowing the f/m to get worse. Take care of yourself. God Bless you and your family

Oh, Darlin', I can feel the pain in you, and I am so sorry for what you are going through. The one thing I can tell you with certainy is that the Lord has not abandoned you.He is there, and is heartbroken over this situation, just as you are. Perhaps you have a priest or pastor you can talk to? I do not know what can of convent your husband has gone to, but in my opinion he is unlikely to resolve anything there if he is constantly calling you, and it surely isn't doing you any good. If his mental staate is that bad, he does need help, but he needs to get it where there are professionals who can actually treat him. At this point, I think the best thing for you is to try to take care of yourself, you will definetly make yourself sicker, and that won't help anyone. I don't know how old your daughter is, but if she's an adult, let her handle her own problems for now.I'm glad you have seen a counselor. I hope the meds will kick in and give you some relief.
I don't know what else to suggest to you, but know we are here to support you in any way we can.hugs

I am so sorry for your pain.I wish I could take it all a way.I can say if your here you are not alone.You will get the best love and support on this site form all these women.Please reach out and we will be here for you!!!!!!!God Be With You

dearest blonde,
i am so sorry for the pain you are going thru. you are in my thoughts and prayers... It sounds like your husband wants the help and wants to get the help so that the two of you can back to a fairly normal life...is he seeking professional help tho? Is he at a convent? i am little confused on that one...but just know that no matter how bleak things may get and look to you there is a silver lining/rainbow waiting to appear for you... ( I know it is very difficult to see that at this point) but God is there with you. You take care of you and take the meds..the mind can play funny tricks on us and until the chemical balance is fixed and the counseling is good thing for you. You need to take care of yourself... We are here for you don't ever feel abondoned. Do you have any family or friends near you that are close to you to help you? wE WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU!!!
I know it is hard but things can get much better, there is just a fog clouded your vision because of all the stress and pain you are enduring... I wish you much love and prayers...be good to yourself
Hugs,
Tea

FATHER GOD, WE ASK YOU IN JESUS NAME TO BRING FORTH YOUR RESTORATION FOR HIS MARRIAGE. TO SEARCH FOR YOU IN UNKNOWN PLACES LORD CAN BE SO DANGEROUS AND WE ASK YOU TO COVER THE HUSBAND WITH YOUR POWERFUL LOVE AND ASK THAT YOU SHOW HIM WHERE TO GO, TO THE THRONE OF RIGHTEONESS. WE ASK THAT YOU LEAD HIM TO ONE OF YOUR CHURCHES THAT BUILD ON YOUR LOVE LORD. WE KNOW THAT WE CAN DO NOTHING BUT PRAY, BUT YOU HAVE PUT THIS OPPURNITY BEFORE US AS A TEST OF WILLS, AND FATHER I DON'T THINK THAT HE KNOWS YOU YET. SO LET US GATHER AND PRAY DAILY FOR THE HUSBAMD TO BE SHOWN WHERE TO GO TO MEET YOU, WE PRAY THIS IN CHRIST JESUS NAME AND KNOW THAT YOU ARE THE WAY, THE TRUTH, AND THE LIGHT. BRING HIM HOME FATHER TO THE WIFE THAT NEEDS HIM RIGHT NOW.....AMEN

You are so in my thoughts and prayers, just as you are in the thoughts of all of us here at DS. We are here for you. Believe it or not you have already taken the first few steps. You are seeking professional help, and you have reached out to others here on this board. I would say that it is often helpful to write our feelings out, let it all go. Then say okay I am moving forward, set some goals for your self. I really would try to go to work everyday, or you will be in more financial trouble.

I am so sorry you are going thru this..I to have felt abandond in my life, left alone to deal with everything...your husband has reached a point of desperation...perhaps he is better where he is and you need to concentrate on You as well, so that when you 2 come back together you Both will be stronger, so Use this time to really focus on first your needs, then your wants...see what you can Purge from your soul, and keep in constant contact with someone here so that you can Always get the words of Encouragement you are Going to Need at this Point in your Life...I can assure you God has Not and never will Abandon you...he is showing you your true strengths...and you do have them, even if you have to dig a bit to find them...let your husband Know just how much you Love him, and Pray everyday for him as well..
God Bless you my Friend...I Pray the 2 of you find not only your inner strength, but your inner Peace as well..

Your Friend, Bonnie

So sorry to hear this.
But it takes a strong person to know they need help and to go get it. I hope he comes home soon. Also I know how you feel to not have the support you need at this time too. To have this Illness and be alone without anyone is so hard to deal with.

So sorry to hear this.
But it takes a strong person to know they need help and to go get it. I hope he comes home soon. Also I know how you feel to not have the support you need at this time too. To have this Illness and be alone without anyone is so hard to deal with.

Thank you deal friends from the bottom of my broken heart!!! He is staying in a convent around where there are nuns to watch over him. He sought them out when he was a child in time of fear and desperation and has gone back to his source of a sanctuary. There is one particular nun that calls him all of the time to make sure he is ok and is doing what is right. He is seeking counseling and then we will have counseling together. The other major problem in our lives is that we are having to declare banruptcy which has been a great source of stress in our lives.

Thank you very much for your source of strength and comfort! I have always been the one to want to give out that strength but I can't this time! so, thank you all!

Love,
amy

I am glad that I have you all to turn to. All of our family is in another state, which makes things a bit tough.