It seems like no matter what I do. Whether it is about FM or other things in my life. My heart and/or mind and/or body are constantly fighting. I am confused, hurt, scared, happy, grieving, sad, in pain, exhausted, not hungry, insomniatic, crazy person!! I don't know sometimes what is real anymore. I sometimes feel as if I am in a dream. Surely this can't be real? Surely I am sleeping? I shouldnt be hurting like this! I should be doing this and this and this!! What is wrong with me? Oh..I know I sound psychotic. My ADD is in overdrive right now. So many thoughts...so many emotions...I sometimes don't know what is real. Are the things I tell myself real and true? Or is it what others tell me? Oh God I am crazy!! Someone lock me away!!! Fighting...always fighting...and when my body, mind, and heart fight...I end up crashing even harder. I know this may sound like ramblings from a psychotic person. But does anyone understand what I am saying?? Or am I really that far gone?
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