Welp, I was so excited for the holiday. I had a head start on getting the place organized and cleaned. I'm still excited about that, btw. Just one day of organizing got me so motivated that I cleaned out the dining room, threw stuff out, organized another closet, threw more stuff out and now 2/3 of the place is clean and totally organized! Ahhh, nothing makes me happier than a well organized house :) Well, maybe having people around to enjoy it with.
Which brings me to my dilemma. I had one of my neighbors invite me last saturday night to bbq at the pool. I was feeling horrid from a recent diverticulosis attack and mold allergies and a long week at work. All I wanted to do was sleep all weekend. So, I tentatively said yes letting her know I wasn't feeling well. Then I just got worse (turns out mold went into the extremely high category I found out later). I told her I wouldn't be able to make it. That is the second turn down I made to an invitation by her. But, I thought I was doing good, because before that, I was 1 for 2 in making it walking the one time. She knows I have fibro and have been in several accidents. She is a master reiki healer, so in her book, it's a freakin' mind thing. She told me how she got herself well and all that crap.
Well 2 weeks ago monday I had also re-wrenched my low back by showing the maids what to throw out in the fridge. Yes, I have very cheap maids that clean once a month. I scrape up the funds to do it, otherwise I just reinjure myself, so it's worth it to me. It's also good for my mental health I must say. Anyhoo, she also knows I was in back to back accidents not too long ago. So, this last Tuesday, monday following the bbq, I told her I was feeling better and did she want to go with me to get my nails done or something for the holidays and what was her schedule. NOW, granted I have been flaky with her neighbor that I had gone out with before by scheduling and rescheduling going to the movies. We went to dinner once and had a nice time...both of us said so. So, I really think she got to her because all "lisa" said (the reiki master) was, "we haven't decided what we're doing yet". Meaning, she and her boyfriend (it's a two-fer). So, I invited both she, her boyfriend and my neighbor over the 4th of July. They both wanted to see my place because I have the view facing west over the hill country, sunset and all the fireworks (I counted 10 of them even from far away!!!). I told them both I was waiting to get my place cleaned up so I could have people over, so this was it.
Well, guess what? I got absolutely NO REPLY from either of them. Not even, "thank you for asking, but we've got plans". Or, "i'm not feeling up to it" or just, hell, "suck wind and don't text me anymore", lol. Nothing, nada, nadie, nunca. WTH you guys?
I just really wish people had more compassion. People think because they were once sick or had 1 accident or whatever the bleep they think, that you can just suck it up and go. They have NO IDEA what we go through with pain, different ailments that are just totally debilitating. Throw in some bad weather and you have a recipe for, I cannot even think of getting out of bed scenario.
So, I'm depressed, sad, feeling like I am a pariah once again. I used to throw these incredible parties with live band or dj, gourmet food, etc. People would always rsvp, and show up because they knew it was going to be a good time and good food, etc. I am not used to people being rude. Is it the nature of living in an apartment complex do you think? The kind of people here or are they just rude or is it because I have been too flaky? I apologized profusely when I cannot go, but it doesn't seem to matter. Since I stopped being a people pleaser, I gots me no people to please, lmao!
Some people said they were interested in seeing this, it's the drawing of bfs friends dog
Good morning, and yes, I'm in a Fibro Zone. Hot hot hot humid humid humid. May as well just crank my Fibro to nine and leave it there. Oh wait... The weather did. *sigh*Well, I started out investigating good walking shoes and wound up on anacondas of the Amazon.I'll spare you that journey (you're welcome) and settle for this tale.***Dahlia squalls.Dixie fluffs up her tail and flees.I hobble at...