For those of you that know me this shouldnt suprise you. I had seriously thought of going back to dancing this past summer as SSD doesnt pay enough for me to survive and free lance design isnt cutting it at the moment - could be because between the fibro, tumor and meds I cant think straight enough to design shit but thats a story for a different day. Anyways because of some shit happening I decided against returning to dancing. I then had to move in with my oldest in Podunk NE and I absolutly hate this state. I want to be out of here and somewhere warm by spring and it doesnt look like daddys estate is going to be clear by then so had to come up with a way to get the bills caught up and get some money stocked away. SSD allows you to make 900 or so extra a month without loosing any benefits. So being of a totally different mindset then most people I did what any wild weird woman with fibro would do I went and applied for a job as a phone sex operator and lo and be hold I got the fucking job. WOOOT. I actually dont think its gonna be so bad. I get to choose my own hours, work when I want and I never have to get out of my pajamas. One day when my brain wants to function again I will go back to design with some seriousness but right now my back is against the wall and desperate times call for desperate measures.
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