I have this pain that won't quit. My rheumy has me on morphine for my nighttime pain and vicoden for daytime. I guess it works ok, but only WHEN I TAKE IT! The idea that I am dependent on these meds is just hard for me to accept. But the truth is, I am dependent. I guess the stigma I have is that I don't want to be addicted. My rheumy told me the only reason he would prescribe these meds is because I don't have an addictive personality. Actually, I am the opposite. I don't take the meds when I should... and then I suffer the pain for it. When my pain flares up because I am off the meds, then it takes a while to get back to a controlled state with it. Oh brother. I wonder if anyone else is familiar with this roller-coaster? It is so hard to explain, unless you've been there.
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