Okay. I know I posted before about my busy schedule. Today I'm supposed to go to class--two, two and a half hour lectures back to back. And I just couldn't do it today. It was as much about being in pain as it was about being fatigued and it was a mental block. I feel like a failure. I finally had to e-mail my instructors today that I have FMS. I hope I did the right thing. In the two years I've been in graduate school I've never told anyone about my FMS--I've always been able to handle it. Now, I can't. Maybe it is the pressure of having a three month old, but I feel like my pain is getting worse. I am taking anti-d's to help with my depression and pain meds, but I'm just feeling like giving up today. I just feel like I want to drop everything and hide in a hole today.
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