My apologies in advance for the long post....For the past few months I've been contemplating switching Pain Doctors. For the most part he has been caring and seems to listen to me. However, my last couple of visits were a different story. I was on Lyrica 50mg 3x a day and Roxycodone 4x a day. The Roxycodone wasn't working anymore (built up a tolerance) and after a very bad week of extreme frustration and being in excruciating pain, I screwed up and took more than prescribed. I know it was a dumb thing to do but I was in so much pain and just desperately wanted to find some relief. Needless to say, he weaned me off it and upped the Lyrica. Next visit, Lyrica stil doing nothing and I'm in worse pain than ever. So he tries me on what he called a baby" dose of Methadone. 1st few weeks it worked wonders but then stopped working. Pain level has yet again increased. Next visit he tells me he's "run out of ideas" and gives me a compounded neurontin ointment. This did zero for my pain. Next visit he suggests a cervical spine epidural injection and very hesitantly offers to give me a script for 1 roxycodone per day. While it was nice to get 4 hours of relief, what am I to do for the other 8 hours? Yep. You got it, suffer. Now my pain is the absolute worst I have ever felt since this whole thing started 10 months ago. Every bone and muscle in my body feels like its been smashed with a hammer and I have agonizing nerve pain 24/7. Its as if I were on no medication at all and am in a never ending flare-up. I go to see him on Wednesday and I'm very nervous that he's going to give up on me. While I know it won't be a long term solution, I really feel I'm a good candidate for a strong painkiller. Roxycodone does help take the edge off the pain to allow me to be comfortable enough to make it through the work day and not feel like I'd rather be 6 feet under. How do I explain to him that this would be miraculous in providing me some very needed pain relief without him thinking I'm just some pill popper? Or at this point do I cut my losses and find another Doc with a clean slate? I get the impression that my Pain Dr doesn't like the patients who come back time after time saying that his theories haven't worked and I'm worse than I was before. He wants the patients who come in with a smile and say "yes dr, I feel much better, thanks. Here's your $50 co-pay, and I'll walk myself out". This is such a stressful situation and I so badly want some relief from this pain. I have zero quality of life and I don't know how much longer I can go on like this.
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