I think I finally am accepting that I really have an illness. I hate it because I think that most people think I am well. She looks ok, she just "acts" like she is not type-of-thing. I have 3 kids, 7, 5, and 2. I am in pain in my legs and hips most days. I cant take care of my kids properly, even just the getting them up out of bed, fixing breakfast, lunch, dinner is really hard and stressful. I try, but I end up feeling overwhelmed and mad at myself. I dont have any family around, except for my hubbys family, but they are still a ways away (20-30 minutes or an hour). My depression set in a few weeks ago, and I cant get back out of it. I am a walker, and cant walk because I dont have enough energy to do it. I cant do much of anything but sit on my couch all day long. I cant seem to sleep at night, which isnt helping, but I cant drive to a doctors to be checked out because I have vertigo. I am feeling like my kids deserve SO much better, but I dont know how to do what they need. I dont want to live the rest of my life like this, but I dont have a choice in it either. Please help me... what should I do?
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