Female Sexual Issues Support Group
Sexual dysfunction or sexual malfunction is difficulty during any stage of the sexual act (which includes desire, arousal, orgasm, and resolution) that prevents the individual or couple from enjoying sexual activity. Sexual dysfunction disorders are generally classified into four categories: sexual desire disorders, sexual arousal disorders, orgasm disorders, and sexual...
From the age of 16 I had what I thought was a wonderful sex life. Looking back I would say I was probably very selfish though. I used sex as love, as I beleived that the two were the same. I only felt loved and wanted during sex. After, I felt cheap and worthless.
I had many abusive relationships where I was physically beaten up and to cope with this I would drink excessivly. (cant feel them hitting you when your drunk).
I have had 1 loving relationship and that was when I was 25, and as a result I had my son.
The sex was good and for once we looked after each other.
Unfortunately that relationship ended and sex became unimportant for me.
Since then I have had 3 relationships, (getting married to the 3rd). Sex got pretty boring after a while and far from looking after my own needs I concentrated on my partner. Perhaps I have just been unlucky but they just seemed to be interested in their needs.
Especially with my now, ex husband, he drove me mad. God I was so bored. It was like a routine, 1st thing in the morning, if I said no because i'd be late for work he would call me selfish. In public he had to make a spectacle of having his arm round me. This made me so uncomfortable. (dont get me wrong i love cuddles, but not in public)
As for orgasms... I think i've forgotten what they are. Got so used to faking them.
After my miscarriage I lost all interest in sex, he kept pestering me so I would do my wifely duty but I would cry all the way through and couldn't wait for it to end.
All i wanted was for him to hold me and not want it to lead anywhere else. To make me feel attractive and special.
The rows got worse and I found out he had been seeing his ex and having sex with her.
I was so releived it gave me the way out that I needed. He rang me one night saying he was staying the night with her and he would see me the following day. I told him not to bother coming home. He didn't.
I divorced him for adultery and am now free of him.
Sex? I don't know whether its due to my depression, some days I couldnt care less after all for me sex is abusive, cruel and selfish.
Then I have the occassional day when I feel so sad. I wish someone would 'fancy' me, but love me also for who I am. It would be so great to see sex as part of a loving, caring relationship, but I suspect it is too late for me.
Am I the only one that feels this way? Can change ever happen?
I had many abusive relationships where I was physically beaten up and to cope with this I would drink excessivly. (cant feel them hitting you when your drunk).
I have had 1 loving relationship and that was when I was 25, and as a result I had my son.
The sex was good and for once we looked after each other.
Unfortunately that relationship ended and sex became unimportant for me.
Since then I have had 3 relationships, (getting married to the 3rd). Sex got pretty boring after a while and far from looking after my own needs I concentrated on my partner. Perhaps I have just been unlucky but they just seemed to be interested in their needs.
Especially with my now, ex husband, he drove me mad. God I was so bored. It was like a routine, 1st thing in the morning, if I said no because i'd be late for work he would call me selfish. In public he had to make a spectacle of having his arm round me. This made me so uncomfortable. (dont get me wrong i love cuddles, but not in public)
As for orgasms... I think i've forgotten what they are. Got so used to faking them.
After my miscarriage I lost all interest in sex, he kept pestering me so I would do my wifely duty but I would cry all the way through and couldn't wait for it to end.
All i wanted was for him to hold me and not want it to lead anywhere else. To make me feel attractive and special.
The rows got worse and I found out he had been seeing his ex and having sex with her.
I was so releived it gave me the way out that I needed. He rang me one night saying he was staying the night with her and he would see me the following day. I told him not to bother coming home. He didn't.
I divorced him for adultery and am now free of him.
Sex? I don't know whether its due to my depression, some days I couldnt care less after all for me sex is abusive, cruel and selfish.
Then I have the occassional day when I feel so sad. I wish someone would 'fancy' me, but love me also for who I am. It would be so great to see sex as part of a loving, caring relationship, but I suspect it is too late for me.
Am I the only one that feels this way? Can change ever happen?
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I am definetly not an authority on this one but I just want you to know that there are great men out there who love to make you feel good in all respects. hang in there cause I would say it's not over...not by a long shot! :)
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I know exactly how you feel been there I am still married but we are more like best friends. No real sexaul contact for us.
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Patricia...I have felt like you, for just as long. I got married at 20, to a man that I love but just don't desire. I've never desired a man actually since a boyfriend I had when I was 15. That was the only enjoyable sex I ever had. Anyway, right out of the blue this acquaintance of my mine hit on me and we started an affair. The sex is so incredible that even if he dropped me tomorrow, I've decided that I have to leave my husband. It's not fair to him and I can't lie anymore. I'm heading down a tough road, some may have now sympathy but for myself...all I can see is the end of a tunnel and endless possibiity. I hope you find the same, I really do.
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