I have been with my husband since I was 15 years old. I am now 23, and we have two small boys, 3 and 1 years old. I've been having trouble with sex for awhile now, really since 2004ish when my father died. I dont know what happened to me. I used to like to have sex with my husband. We used to have intercourse regularly when we were dating, and we tried new things, had fun, etc. I got sick in 2005, and I found out I had a lung disorder. Since then I have really just had to fake wanting to have sex. I can't even orgasm most of the time. And if I do, I suddenly have a lubrication problem right after orgasm. This is so weird to me. All of my friends love having sex with their boyfriends/husbands, and oral sex, etc. but I just could live without it. As of January this year I was also diagnosed with chronic kidney stone disease. I have been passing stones for almost 4 years now. Yes it hurts and most days I feel like I have a bladder infection even if I dont. So I know that is a reason to not want to have sex. But where is the part of me that WANTS to even if I can't?? Like there's these women who have a baby and can't even wait the 6 weeks for the post partum check up... I was so glad I had 6 weeks to myself. Is this due to me being sick or do you think there is another problem? I mean, I don't want to lose my husband, he's the love of my life. We have been through hell and back and have made it out alive. I dont know. In February I had throat surgery and ever since then I have been losing weight.. drastically. Like so much that my wedding ring is falling off. Where has my life went? I'm too young to be so boring. What's the deal? Is there any medicines that help with sex drive? Is there an illness that goes with kidney problems that affects your hormones? Am I going insane? Ugh, help me.
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