I'm sorry this is only part to do with sex issues, but i dont know where else to turn. My problem is that my self esteem is and has been for a while, very low, and its affecting my relationship with my boyfriend. We've been together almost 6 years and i love him with all my heart and i know he loves me too deep down but I cant help thinking all the things i do. It's affecting our sex life because even though he's seen me undressed a million times before, I'm scared he's gonna be unhappy with what he sees. I find it so difficult to get in the mood because i just cant relax. I'm constantly thinking things like "what if im rubbish but he cant tell me and then runs off to someone else to get it better", or when we walk down the street my brain is telling me he loves me and wouldnt but my heart is saying what if hes looking at her and wishing i looked like that? I look in the mirror every day and wish i looked different and im crying as i write this because i know this is the kind of thing that pushes men away but i dont know how to stop. I've tried to tell him how i feel but he gets upset that i dont like myself and says how can i love him if i dont even love myself. But i do love him, more than anything, I just want to make him, and myself, happy.
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