I hate this day. I'm not sure why it comes and goes so much, but the feelings I experience of loneliness must be what hell is like. Today is one of those really bad ones. I'm not sure what to do. It helps to talk online, but it's not the same as human contact. I wish so badly that I could meet someone special who has some of my interests and someone who is interested in persuing a lasting relationship. Maybe it's just not in my future. Maybe it wasn't my plan.