I lost my husband to cancer 5 months ago When he first got it he got treatment chemo and radiation and we thought he was going to beat it. He got really sick one night a year later and had to be rushed to the hospital. That's when I found out the cancer was back and the doctors gave him 6 months instead he died in 3 days. I dint have a job when he died because of bad bouts of depression and we were living paycheck to paycheck before his death. 3 weeks after he died I got a job we had no money at all. Today I was fired from my job. I couldnt handle the pressure and stress. Now Im jobless and afraid soon to be homeless. I have a 16 year old daughter who I know loves me but her way of dealing with my pain and lonliness is staying away from home as much as possible. For the last hour I have been sitting on my couch staring out the window and crying. I have never been so scared and lonely in my life. My one close friend has been avoiding my phone calls I guess Ive pushed away the only real friend I had. I have no family other then my children and they dont know what to do Im the adult Im supposed to be able to handle life instead I just feel terrified that things will get even worst. I dont know how to deal with lonliness like this its so painful.
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