I had a pretty good night last, I spent time with my boyfriend, we laughed, talked alot had a really nice time. I went to bed woke up around 3 A.M. and couldn't go back to sleep. I can't understand why I can be so happy and just a few hours later feel like my life is a mess and no one could possibly care about me, and I also started to obsess about illness. Aside from depression and anxiety I am a very pretty healthy person. I started to worry that I might have cancer or some other major illnes. It is so rough riding this roller coaster.