I'm married, not happily really, have a dysfunctional family to say the least. I'm a productive member of society, but I'm not sociable by any means. Love my husband more than anything, but all in all I don't feel he "gets" me or even cares to. He has a pretty good package deal in me and I think he cares, but to be quite honest ALL I'VE EVER WANTED MY ENTIRE LIFE IS TO BE FULLY LOVED BY ANOTHER ---FOR SOMEONE TO BE THERE FOR ME, SOMEONE I COULD GIVE ALL MY LOVE TO ---SECURITY! LOVE THAT NEVER ENDS NO MATTER WHAT. Maybe that's a fairy tale wish and is not realistic, but I give all my love to him, ALL of it so why is it not possible that I could be worthy of being someone's priority. There's nothing worse than lying next to the one you love with all your heart and feeling so utterly alone ---truly alone in this world. It sucks!!!
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