I am still in my marriage. I have been with him for 17 years but married for 10 of those. We stayed together because I got pregnant. And we now have four children. I KNOW I am not happy. I KNOW I dont want to be with him anymore. I KNOW my children see the unhappiness (although we do not fight in front of them). So WHY cant I leave? WHY is it so hard to make that first step?
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