I AM NEW TO THIS COMMUNITY, GUESS I HAVE A HARD TIME ADMITTING TO PEOPLE THAT I AM SCREWED UP. OK, HERE WE GO. WHEN I WAS 11 YEARS OLD MY BROTHER MOLESTED ME. IT ONLY HAPPENED ONCE THAT I KNOW OF BUT I CANT SEEM TO GET RID OF THE ANGER AND HATRED THAT I FEEL. I AM NOW 32 AND HAVE TWO DAUGHTERS. WELL ONE NINE YEAR OLD AND ONE ON THE WAY. MY BROTHER IS NOW IN PRISON FOR MOLESTING HIS OWN DAUGHTER AND HIS GIRLFRIENDS DAUGHTER. THAT HAPPENED 3 YEARS AGO. I, MYSELF NEVER BROUGHT CHARGES AGAINST HIM CAUSE WELL FOR ONE I HAVE MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS AND DID NOT WANT THE ADDED STRESS IN MY LIFE, AND FOR TWO MY MOTHER HAS ALWAYS TAKEN HIS SIDE ON THINGS SO WHAT IS THE POINT. WHEN I TOLD MY MOTHER WHAT HE HAD DONE TO ME SHE JUST SAID THAT MAYBE I COULD FIND IT IN MY HEART ONE DAY TO FORGIVE HIM. I DONT THINK I EVER COULD BUT THAT IS BESIDE THE POINT. I HAVE NIGHTMARES ALL THE TIME. I WROTE A LETTER TO HIM A FEW WEEKS AGO. IT MADE ME FEEL BETTER AT THE TIME BUT NOW I AM JUST TOTALLY PISSED CAUSE I KNOW THAT I WILL PROBABLY NEVER GET ANY KIND OF ADMISSION FROM HIM ABOUT WHAT HE DID TO ME. I AM SO SCARED THAT WHEN HE GETS OUT THAT HE WILL TRY AND COME TO MY HOUSE. WHAT CAN I DO TO EASE SOME OF THIS STRESS THAT I HAVE AND RELEASE THIS ANGER THAT HAS TAKEN OVER MY LIFE? ANY SUGGESTIONS WOULD BE APPRECIATED.
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