Okay, okay, I know how selfish it sounds and how immature it makes me out to be but I'm being honest. I don't like it that my parents have custody of 2 of my uncles 4 kids. One is 7 months and the other is 4. My other aunt has the 5 year old and 10 year old. Before all of this happened in mid 07 things were much better. I have the only two grandchildren and I am the only girl so I am used to getting a lot of attention and support. Now that they have the new kids, my mom is especially consumed with the baby girl. I am so angry at my uncle and his wife that they cannot choose the children over the drug addiction. I should be more understanding because my relationship just broke up over drug addiction. So I should have sympathy for them...I can't seem to find it in my heart though. I see how this is a strain on my parents relationship and my relationship with my mom and both of my brothers relationship with her as well. I feel like my children are being cheated out of a grandmother. Especially my older daughter who is used to having her grandparents around. My younger daughter is only 2 so she doesn't even realize the difference. Two things that make this even harder are for one these are the only grandparents that either of my girls have and for two the 'newness' of my younger one is replaced by the 7 month old...if that makes any sense. I love my cousins and I understand the position my parents are in because if I was in a situation where I could keep my brothers kids from going to state care I would. Honestly, the situation just SUCKS!!!! I feel myself becoming resentful everytime my mom talks about the 'new kids' and I'll end our conversation or change the subject. I'm trying to deal with it better but it's so hard.
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