My mom had us out of wedlock. She had five children all together but out of all five I am the only one that didnt get to develop a relationship with grandma. You see my grandma was mad that my mom had gotten pregnant again after the first three out of wedlock. So when my mom became pregnant with me my grandmother was having no dealings with the baby, which was me. She was so fed up and disgusted by my mom constantly getting knocked up and not having a husband. I unfortunately had to pay for my mom disappointing her mother. I was not allowed at my grandma house even though my siblings were. I had to stay at my aunt's house right next door to my grandma's because I was not accepted by her. I was allowed to go to her funeral either. I hear family speak of her in such fond memories but I dont share the same sentiment. When I have seen photos of my grandma I have freaked out I assume it is a psychological thing. The only person I have told of this is my fiancee and one of my sisters'. I understand my grandmother being disappointed with my mom but how could she take it out on an innocent child?
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