My parents are now and have always been insensitive to my needs. Everything from not noticing when I was suicidal (they thought I was just down a lot) to not respecting my privacy (walking in on me while I'm changing even when I was 15 because they didn't knock on my door). They've always assumed I was being stubborn for the sake of being defiant when I was just protecting myself, despite the fact that EVERYTIME it proved that I was protecting myself and they'd been told to start talking and stop assuming by multiple psychiatrist, therapists and I'd told them several times. Anyways, I know that what I need to do is just accept they won't change, but every time they do something new, it hurts. Especially because they treat my brother so much better, actually, they're considered kind and caring by everyone except me. So part of me keeps believing that they'll treat me the same way they treat everyone else. I just don't know how to let go of this.
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