my dad has seriously changed, when i first met him 2 years ago, he was my best friend, the coolest person around, and now im starting to despise him. i dont feel like he cares about me anymore. i hear peopel say children come first, but it sure doesnt seem like i do to him. then i have these feelings that start to bother me like, he cant possibly love me, like he does sarah or T.J. because he known them there whole life, or in sarah's case he will know her, her whole life, an as for me, he's only known me for two years. as i said though, lately he has been ignoring me, for instance he told me last night ' im going to pick up jayson, because he had way way to much to drink, and i will be back in 15 minutes, when i get back we'll watch the final destination movie together." so i was pretty excited cause we dont really spend much time together. so i waited, and waited, and waited more till i fell asleep. i then woke up at 6 in the morning and him still not being home, then fell asleep an woke up again and him being absent. about 2 o'clock i gave up. i was so pissed, all i could think about was going home back to az. eventually he got back explained what happen, said that he had to go to ohio with his boss cause something happen to his friends, but i dont believe him i think he went to party. so i havent talked to him much. he keeps coming in the comp room to kinda spy on me cause i think he knows im writting something about him. but im seriously ready to give up. i have though about it over and over, and think how maybe i shouldnt talk to him anymore, i lived with out him for 15 years, i dont think it would be hard to do it again, for i feel like he wouldnt really care anyhow.
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